As I wrote yesterday, a crisis of creative identity has me searching deeper within myself for the whys: why I make the choices I do design wise, why I make the work in the first place. While I was sketching and journaling last night, it hit me that another reason I may be feeling so blocked these days is that I haven't spent any time nurturing my creative self. My days are packed with to do and to make lists, business goals, the pressures of being a wife, mother, friend, sister, etc., personal goals, and so on. It's all good, but I can't remember the last time I took myself out to see a gallery show or drove somewhere just to take pictures or tried a new medium. In other words, I haven't been on an artist date, a phrase coined by the author of "The Artist's Way", in months. So I'm making time for that today. I think, even though it's rainy out, I'll go walk the waterfront to see the cherry blossoms and take pictures. Looking forward, I realize I should make time for this creative date once every week or every other week. And this time for sketching and journaling and asking myself questions needs to become a daily habit. The increasing demands of life these days has taken my day dreamer self and turned it into a doing self, an ever on the go, constantly moving self, and I'm realizing for the deeper levels of creativity and imagination that I want to reach, it's time to find the day dreamer that I know is still in there.
I read this morning, in an interview with the painter Laura Pritchett over at Artifact Uprising (sorry, I don't know how to put in links on this thing yet) that she regularly challenges herself to try something completely outside her comfort zone. Right now it's building a canoe. A canoe! It was so inspiring to hear her take on the project which was, even if the canoe doesn't end up floating, it will have served it's purpose which was to expand her understanding. I love that. I love a good challenge, especially right after that moment of initial terror when I realize it's possible, and everything opens up.